5 Ways Deepening My Faith in Christ has Started to Transform My Motherhood and Homemaking Journey

I’ve felt the pull to deepen my faith in the Lord for quite some time—well before recent tragic events shook the world. Like many others, those moments became a wake-up call to come home to Christ and stand firm in faith.

My Faith Background

To put things briefly, I grew up Roman Catholic. Over time, I experienced what many call “church hurt”—not so much from the doctrine itself, but from people within the church. From there, I drifted into everything from new-age manifestation practices to Pagan witchcraft (yes, I was even briefly part of a small coven and practiced solo under various deities for years).

That’s a story for another post, but I share it because I now recognize why I resisted a true relationship with Christ for so long: I was afraid of how powerful and transformative His presence would be in my life.

Now, as a grown woman walking with Christ and a mother raising the next generation of disciples, I can no longer hold onto that fear. As a homemaker, I also can’t afford to leave my family spiritually exposed to the easy influence of the secular world just because I was afraid of a little Holy Spirit conviction.

Growing in God’s Word

For a little over the past month, I’ve been intentionally spending time with God’s Word—even if it’s just meditating on the daily verse from my Bible app. I make it a point to talk with the Lord throughout my day. I’ve even found myself doing Bible study while waiting for my OB during my prenatal appointment!

And let me tell you: Even in this short amount of time, I’ve already noticed real changes.

---

What I’ve Learned Since Deepening My Faith

1. Learning to Abide

Patience has never been my strong suit. After "wasting" so much time in my past relationship before meeting Handsome Man, I’ve often felt like I needed to “catch up” on my dreams.

But God is teaching me to wait—and be okay waiting. Whether we find our forever home next week or five years from now, I trust it will come at the right time. Until then, I’m learning to steward the “small” blessings He has given me. As Luke 16:10 reminds us: “Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much.”

2. My Anxiety is Ceasing

I’ll be honest: I’ve battled anxiety most of my life, but especially after experiencing back-to-back miscarriages last year. When I found out I was pregnant again, everything seemed to trigger worry.

But the deeper I go into my faith, the weaker anxiety’s grip becomes. Anxiety is nothing more than the work of Satan. I realized just the other day while journaling that triggers are simply distractions meant to pull us from God’s protection. If they aren’t from Him, they hold no authority over me.

3. Slower to Annoyance & Less Overstimulated

As any mom knows, toddlers can test your patience. I love my daughter dearly, but when you’ve read the same book twenty times in a day, it can be a lot!

Yet, since deepening my faith, I’ve noticed I’m slower to irritation and less easily overstimulated. Do I still have my moments? Of course. Motherhood is a work in progress, especially when you’re learning without wisdom passed down from generations of stay-at-home mothers. But with prayer, I’m growing steadier, calmer, and more present.

4. Disconnecting from the World

The more I walk with Christ, the less I want to be part of the world’s noise. Some days I dream about going back to a landline and handwritten letters, with as little social media as possible.

After years in the fashion design and fashion influencer industry, Instagram still leaves a bitter taste in my mouth. What I truly crave now are authentic, Christ-centered relationships offline. Building community in the real world has been slow, but I know God is leading me to it.

5. “Survival Mode” is Gone

For the first time in my life, I feel like I’m truly living rather than just surviving. My joy feels childlike again—like when the world hadn’t yet stripped away innocence.

I’m no longer worried about what’s next. I’m not waiting for rain clouds because I know I walk under God’s eternal umbrella. Even Handsome Man (who I thank God for every day, because you can't exit survival mode as a homemaker without a strong man at the head of your home to protect and provide) has noticed and feels the same: Our lives may look “boring” to society, but we’re experiencing a deeper, unexplainable joy.

---

Closing Thoughts

I won’t pretend every day is perfect. Life still brings challenges. But surrendering control to God has been the best decision I’ve ever made. For the first time, I’m beginning to feel the rest spoken of in Hebrews 4.

Even on my hardest days now, life is better than it ever was before Christ. Because the truth is, even on my “best days” without Him, I was still lost.

And now—I’m finally found.

May God's favor and mercy find you always.